I'm done.

So recently I've had a hard time talking to God....

I've had a hard time letting God in my life....

And i've had a hard time listening to God....



Well the combination of those three things has left me not only hurting, but hurting others too.  I'm at this breaking point, and the only thing I can do at this point is pray. And actually pray, not just talk to the wall and pretend i feel something like i've been doing. I want this all to end. I want to get over this mountain i'm faced with. I want to let God in again. I want to feel like myself again. I want my friends and family to be proud of me again.

But in my heart i know that only God can fix these problems.  I can't make this one go away on it's own.

God has to knock this wall down. Yes, i have to let him help me, but i can't do anything else on my own, it's all in his hands.

I'm sick of feeling empty and worthless. <3

So if you're reading this and you would pray for me it'd be greatly appreciated.

I have to stop the tears, i have to stop the frowns, i have to stop the sorrow.

It's time to get back on track, and happy again.

I miss my true happiness.

I'm done. I can not do this alone. I need him back.

- a very heartbroken A.