Right now I feel so stuck in this moment, stuck in high school, stuck living at home. To many people they see it as a privelage, to be in high school, to be able to live at home, to be capable of living in the moment.
Well, I guess I'm different.
I'm ready for this moment to end, i'm ready to graduate with still a year and a half to go, i'm ready to move on, to start a life. Not only a life, but my life. But yet here I am, doing my AP English homework and thinking about how stuck I am.
I realize most teenagers want high school to end, want to move out, but the difference between many of them and me is the fact that my reasoning to start my life, to graduate with a leg up in my career, i know what i want to do with my life, and i know how i have to get to where I want to go.
So now what? Once again i'm asking God what now? How am I suppossed to sit here in this moment thinking about how much i want it to be over?
I've never actually felt like a kid, like a teenager even, and recently while talking to a friend, discussing this topic, i realized how ready I am for the rest of my life. Yes, I still have a lot of growing to do, but doesn't everyone? I'm not quite sure it's growing that has to occur in high school, I mean maybe i'm wrong, maybe next year, my senior year, will change my life, but at this point i'm not feeling like it's going to make a huge difference. It's just one more year that i'm stuck here, not doing what I want to be doing.
Well anyway, that's the end of this thought process.
Hopefully i'll get out of this hole soon.
- A :)
